The worst year.. the best year.. time will tell...

 

 

Been awhile.. - Remember me?

I've been on the fence about whether or not to start blogging again..

But I really miss the outlet it gives me..

I miss keeping track of all of the things going on in my life..

what a difference a year makes.. or even 6 months.. I think that was the last time I posted.

 

I also worry about filtering myself, where I haven't always been very good. :-)

 

Several years ago, after a dinner party, we had some friends tell us they were splitting up.

But they were going to be really good friends and hoped we would include both when we were inviting people...

hmmm.. we were there to help them move out of their family home and move them into their separate homes.. not far from one another..

They were SOOO NICE to each other. it was almost odd.

 

I couldn't wrap my head around them splitting up if they were such good friends.

Not really any of my business, but secretly I wondered why they couldn't just push through and make it work..

 

Three years later and after 19 years together- Bj and I have decided to do the same.

Will we be such good friends? - I dunno,- but it is worth a shot and we are trying.

 

It's still difficult to say outloud.. hard to write it down.. and even more difficult to tell people.

I suppose I ought to get busy and contact my maid of honor and let her know before someone reads this and asks her if she knew...

 

I know that it isn't really anyone's business.. but when I tell people, I feel I must add..

it wasn't anyone's fault or perhaps both of our fault.

But we aren't splitting up because of anything horrible..

just because after all of these years, we can honestly say that we don't see a future together.

 

My main focus right now is taking care of my babies and making sure that they will be OK..

and taking care of myself.

 

The worst part about it (besides the kids) is being on the other side of the world from my largest support system.. my family..

Being single at 40 (something), and for the first time in my life, living on my own.

 

The best part about it is... taking care of my babies.. I think we are both being better parents making sure that our kids are ok..  living on my own for the first time..

 

Having an awesome job that I love
 and allows me to travel when I don't have the children...
 is pretty awesome too. 

 

I am really trying to find my HAPPY PLACE..

and to become the person I should have been in the first place.

an independent, strong, woman...

 

I will try to be better about posting.. even if it is in the form of pictures..
of where I am .. and what I am up to.

 

for those of you who still read my blog despite my many months away,

THANK YOU for hanging in there.

I appreciate all of your support and prayers for the upcoming year..

which could turn out to be the worst or the best..