FIRSTs at 40...

When I turned 40 last Feb...

I was a little  Incredibly Disappointed.

OPRAH..PROMISED

life would get BETTER after 40...

The day after my 40th birthday.. I was thinking OPRAH was a BIG LIAR..

Better? my ASS..  - I was miserable....

But as the days,rolled into weeks... my life started to change...

FOR THE BETTER...

I remember a few years back(38), thinking that " this is it..." sigh..

might as well give it up... I was feeling OLD & DUMPY.. INVISABLE

I was stuck in a dead-end job, wearing comfortable shoes..... doing the same shit.. week in, week out...

No longer felt like anything more than a mom & a wife...  

 I had lost my mojo.. & didn't think I would be able to get it back....

but somehow.. someway... I did.. I have gotten my MOJO back...

Or at least I am working on it.. and wondering if 40 REALLY is the new 30?

Instead of dwelling on my glory days...

I am pretty sure I have many more AWESOME experiences ahead of me...

I am learning new things everyday...

&  I think FINALLY, I am gaining the ever ELUSIVE  CONFIDENCE of which Oprah spoke.

at 40... I landed THE JOB I would have never had the guts to go after at lets say..39.

I guess I figured.. what the hell... I got nothing to lose.. GO FOR IT.. -& I GOT it..

This isn't a post about...WOW.. my life is FABULOUS... because it isn't

I deal with most of the same crap I was dealing with last year... 

It is just now.. I can see all of the fabulous opportunities...

that this time last year.. I thought they had passed me by...  

OK... what started this little rant POST?

I got the proofs back from my FIRST PHOTO SHOOT..

They took shots for next years catalog...  

OK, don't laugh.. I think it is kindda cool...

OK.. so you can think I am a DORK... I am...

 but sometimes I have to shake my head at all of my FIRSTS at 40... 

In the past few months.. I have helped put together make-up & fashion shows,

 I have given presentations to 200 people.. in Norwegian.. (yea me!)

Have actually called UNCLE & passed up an international business trip..

I finally understand what Bjørn was talking about

when he was traveling NON-STOP & just wanted to be at HOME...

I have let go of bad relationships.. & reached out to those I have lost contact with..

I still have a lot of growing to do...

But I feel like at 40- I am finally finding my voice 

& TRYING to mean what I say & say what I mean...

I didn't have a problem turing 30...

I knew that I was SMARTER,Better Looking & had more money then I was at lets say...20..

But 40 was hard...

After looking back over the past few months..

 I think I can eat a little HUMBLE PIE & apologize to Oprah for ever doubting her...

I am really looking forward to seeing what the rest of the year holds... 

So all of y'all who feel JUST LIKE I DID....

Don't...
just do something different...

get out of your rut & go for it!